rojak mix of good and bad happenings

2nd day at work. Remind me again why I am working in the corporate? Ah yes. Money...the root of all evil.

&#^$#$ I am still feeling a lot of detachment from working vs being a homemaker. To make it worst, my hard disk crashed and all my work from the past 5 years gathered in my previous company is completely wasted. The devil is out to get me. I am sure of it.

I wanna cry when this happens in the morning. I kept praying. I asked God for a miracle. I told God that since you can save my children a few weeks back, you can save me too and this is a matter of life and death! I know I am silly. GOd didn't save my hard disk. It's officially DEAD.

But there is always a ray of light even when the clouds are so dark. Thank God I still have friends in my ex company who have very kindly agreed to help me extract info again. Am I commiting a white collar crime? I think so but then again, those works do belong to me. I created them. So it's a thin line, really. I don't know if God will punish me for this. Somehow I have a feeling He will not because, I think He gave me this solution.

Things are looking a bit up in my new work. My hostile ex colleague/friend spoke to me(finally!) and I have a meeting to go tomorrow. I have never been so happy to go for a meeting! That's only because I hated tweedling my thumbs more. I wanna deliver an honest day's work to God and be accountable to my fellow colleagues and I cannot comprehend how people can skive their whole life taking their salary, not delivering work and do not feel a tinge of embarrasement and guilt. I can't. And I am pleased with myself because I think this makes me a better person and also importantly, delivering what God expects me to.

And finally, the best thing that has happen is my dad is recovering well! I told him to praise the Lord! He must by now acknowledges that God has shown His grace and mercy. How can he not be touched? I am. I know it is God's works. Just last nite I prayed for God to take away my worries. It is too much to take. I ask Him to love me. Sayang me. Help me. Strengthen me. And He has. I love you, God!! Thank you. Even with the corrupted hard disk, you have helped me thru today. Glory to Your name!