bad news

My daddy is going for another op again.

His heart arteries are blocked yet again and he may need to have a pacemaker inserted. i loved my daddy but sometimes the way he treats his own body, makes me so angry!! I mean what is with the smoking, drinking and the unhealthy food when he has already gone through 2 bypass, throat cancer and is a diabetic.

He makes me worry intensely. But I am trying hard to look at the bright side of things. Perhaps God allows this so that I can finally have a chance to talk to him about salvation. For starters, he has already agreed to attend church with me and family next Sabbath. So this is very good.

I am going to fast for the whole of next week. Not only for my dad but also for my job. Last night, I was up till almost 3am worrying about whether I am going to be hired or not. I kept asking my husband the same old question till I think I am driving him nuts.

When my dad told me about his op and the money needed, I am so tempted to just pick up the phone to ask about my job offer. I have to resist so hard in order not to. Perhaps this is another test of my faith. Only when I have gone through the refining fire, I will stand up to the test and be refined as a christian for better things and for His glory to shine through.

I am thankful that at least my husband has work and we still have money to tie us over this period. But whenever something likes this strikes, the fraility of human life is so evident which brings me back to really what is important in life - which is salvation, love, family and friends.

Work is only a means of supporting ourselves and shouldn't be the end all nor shall our lives be measured based on the success of work.

God pls help me.